1.Where is your mobile phone? Wall
2.Your significant other? Zoo
3.Your hair? Gone
4.Your mother? Dead
5.Your father? Dead
6.Your favorite thing? Sushi
7.Your dream last night? Fevered
8.Your favorite drink? Nesquik
9.Your dream/goal? Exaltation
10.The room you’re in? Office
11.Your ex? Forgotten
12.Your fear? Alzheimers
13.Where do you want to be in 6 years? Here
14.Where were you last night? Asleepish
15.What you’re not? Tall
16.Muffins? Nah.
17.One of your wish list items? windows
18.Where you grew up? Florida
19.The last thing you did? Read
20.What are you wearing? PJs
21.Your TV? Off
22.Your pets? None
23.Your computer? Lifeblood
24.Your life? Wonderful
25.Your mood? Grateful
26.Missing someone? No
27.Your car? SCHLOCK
28.Something you’re not wearing? Shoes
29.Favorite store? Amazon
30.Your summer? Hot
31.Like someone? Love
32.Your favorite color? Lost
33.When is the last time you laughed? Yesterday
34.Last time you cried? Yesterday

This last week was a real slog… Monday and Tuesday I finished inking the Schlock Mercenary: The Teraport Wars bonus story. It’s 11 pages long, and details Schlock’s first experiences off of Ghanj-Rho — his earliest memories, and some of the most formative events of his “childhood.” It is a tale of tragedy, woe, high drama, cheap merchandise, and big explosions.

But it’s only INKED. I still need to COLOR it. Including the big explosions, of course.

Wednesday and Thursday I colored strips for the buffer, knocking down two weeks, and replacing a faulty monitor halfway through. Friday I scripted and podcasted. Saturday I pencilled and inked an entire week of comics.

Don’t get me wrong. I love working hard. It’s just that I’m only now, at 7:00pm-ish local time, starting to feel like I’m decompressing from the work week, and it’s almost time to recompress, kicking it into high gear for another week.

I’m okay dying at my drawing table. I just don’t want to do it for another forty years or so.

I want to work harder than I’m able to.

This week I was recovering from Ad Adstra. Monday was a wash. Tuesday and Wednesday I knuckled down and pushed out a week of strips, but by Thursday I was burnt out again. Friday I hosted a party for friends.

Saturday morning arrived and I’d done a week of comics, but made exactly NO progress on the next Schlock book. I HAVE to finish it by the end of this month, and losing an entire week at the beginning of the month was a very depressing thought.

I dragged myself out of bed, and dug into the existing pages. The next two pages of bonus story then flowed like water (well… like urine from a drunk if you must know — they HAD to come out, and they poured forth very freely. Oh, and there was a toilet involved.)

I packed my stuff up and headed to Dragons Keep to pencil and ink.

Six hours later I had the pencilling and inking done. Not only that, but the linking material, conclusion, and splash panel for the last two pages of the story had leapt unbidden to mind. I have a plan in which I knock those two pages down on Monday and Tuesday of next week.

This morning I saw only a month’s worth of no progress, and doom for April.

Now I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, and I feel pretty good about it not being a train.

It feels good to work hard.

This is not a whiny emo post about how horrible it is to be allergic to the air I’m trying to breathe.

No, this is an insightful post about carts, horses, chickens, eggs, and biofeedback.

Today I awoke with a runny nose that signaled the beginning of allergy season. I’ve not been dutiful nor diligent in taking my allergy meds (Flonase, Claritin, and the occasional shot of Albuterol) because of late I haven’t needed them. But this morning I dove into them at 7:00am, because I sensed that a full-on allergy attack was impending.

The meds didn’t work fast enough for my liking. My nose ran so fast that it was running what looked to be pure salt water. It tasted like that too, because it ran so fast at times I couldn’t help but get it in my mouth as I struggled to clean the front of my face.

It was 3:00pm before the assorted meds actually DID anything. By that time I’d added Sudafed and some caffeine to the mix. I finally dried up.

I was exhausted, but happy.

I sat down and triaged my email for a couple of hours. It needed doing.

Mid-triage I began to wonder why I was so sad.

Sad?

When did I get sad? I felt like a good friend just died, and I’d been mourning him for hours.

Oh, yeah. The runny nose.

Physically, the sensation of having had a severely runny nose for eight straight hours felt almost exactly like having bawled my eyes out at a funeral earlier in the day. And since that ACTUALL HAPPENED a couple of weeks back, I seem to be taking emotional cues from my physical state, even though they’re completely unjustified by current events and my state of mind.

On the one hand, this is weird enough and cool enough that I want to write about it. (Done!)

On the other hand, this is extremely frustrating. My dried-out eyes and nose keep tricking me into feeling sad when I’m not. They are inducing a sort of mournful lethargy, and oh, look… the day is now gone. GRRRRR…

So. Allergies make me sad. And that makes me angry. (But part of me can still stand back and be very objectively fascinated by the whole thing.)